Saturday, June 17, 2017

REAL Bikini Bottom

Today marked a milestone.  Since losing weight and having my reconstructive surgeries I have greatly enjoyed wearing a two piece swimsuit...however; I have strictly only worn a bikini bottom with an attached skirt.  I have always felt that my inner thighs were way too flabby and unattractive due to excess skin from the weight loss to really look good in a regular bikini bottom.

Currently I'm on a mini vacation with James for our anniversary and we were in a gift ship looking around.  I came across a cute bikini bottom with no skirt and decided to try it on.  Normally I wouldn't haver bothered, but I had just experienced a bit of an epiphany in regards to what I should aollow myself to feel comfortable in when wearing swim wear...so I gave it a go.

I put it on...and decided that although I may not be a super model, I certainly don't look awful...and actually probably look good.  I need to stop worrying and just LIVE. I bought it.

And to top it off...James and I went swimming in the hotel pool and I wore it with confidence.  A bit nervous...but more confidence than not. I'm proud...excited...and feeling good about myself.  Moral of the story?  Stop worrying about how you look to everyone else and just be happy with you.  :)

Wednesday, June 7, 2017

30 Day Activity Challenge

In an effort to help the kids develop better eating habits that they can take into adulthood, I decided that the whole family will do a 30 Day Activity Challenge.  Being physically active in some way everyday for 30 days.  ALSO, eating as little added sugar as we can.  So far we are half way through, with our finishing day being July 24th.  Everyone is doing great.  Evelyn normally walks on our new/used treadmill, Isaiah works out with weights and the punching bag, James either walks or does a video, and I do one of a few things.  Ride my bike, walk 2 miles, or do a work out video.

I am really proud of our effort.  James has lost a few pounds already.  I have struggled (as you all know) to lose this annoying 10 pounds and I am hoping this will further help me to that goal.  I am doing well still monitoring my food/caloric intake and although I do go over sometimes, I am at least maintaining this weight, and not gaining.  That is good.  I need to do better of course and cut back on my snacking still, so it's less calories and thus I will lose weight.

So frustrating how weight loss surgery can help so much when it comes to losing weight, yet it can do nothing to help your mental issues with food.  BUT, I have known that for years now, as do you since I mention it often. lol  Nonetheless I am still proud of myself for at the very least maintaining my current weight.  It may be 10 pounds more than I would like, but I still look great and must remember that.  Even though it is hard, very hard.

Yet I will continue to try to lose this 10 pounds and regain my personal comfort level.  Knowing I look fine, doesn't change the fact that I simply don't feel as comfortable as I would like in my skin at this weight.  So onward I will go with it, as we all should when we have goals to reach.  Never stop trying!!  That is what must done.

Wearing Shorts

Today I wore shorts.  This may not seem like a big deal, after all I've worn shorts before, these exact ones to be precise. But today wa...