Holiday Feast #1

Thanksgiving was a success…..quality of food and with how much I ate.  I did really good and although I am sure I ate more calories and fat in one meal than I should have I think I did great overall for the whole day.  It seems like holidays are so much easier to deal with now that I have a smaller stomach that can only hold so much anyway.  lol   That really helps.  Still maintaining my weight between 153-155….and still hoping to get lower to 145.  I know it would be easy to do if I could just stick to my 1600 calories a day every single day, but to be honest sometimes I just go to 2000 calories anyway….because I can’t help but want something else to snack on in the evening.  Not the worse thing in the world but I do need to practice maintaining it ALL the time versus solid for one month then a break for a week.  I know I can do it…..all about simply DOING IT!!  

I am still praying diligently about my breasts and how they are healing up.  I ask for contentment, and healing, and also for guidance in how to proceed if after a couple years James and I decide to get a second opinion on the area we are not quite as happy with.  I am so thankful that I have breasts that look great, considering how NOT great they looked after all the weight loss, but it would also be great if they both looked exactly the same.  lol

In other news...changing our peanut butter to the PB2 brand, which cuts the fat of peanut butter down by like 85%, has been a huge success.  I have also changed our syrup to only sugar free.
My daughter has been an avid pb&j sandwich girl for many years and although she is by no means overweight, she does have my body type and I want to ensure she learns to eat right now, so she can be healthy as an adult.  I have already noticed a change in her shape since we started the food change….she has gotten taller of course...so that could be part of it, but her tummy is flattening and I am so excited for her...I know it has been something that has bothered her for so long.  The old she gets the taller she will get, she will continue to slim out and with the healthy way of eating she and my son will have a great chance at being healthy adults!  AWESOME!!!  

Anyway...so that is the current update….Christmas is next….and hopefully that food festival will be just as good for me.  :)  

No More Bath Time

Just wanted to share a quick update.  It has been 10 days since I fainted and got a concussion in the process.  I am doing so much better now and I am very thankful for it.  The first 5-6 days seriously sucked.  I felt so tired, and my head was almost constantly hurting.   Even worse than that though was how confused and just foggy my head would feel while doing more than one thing at a time.  God forbid someone try talking to me while I was cooking, or reading, or anything….even though I could hear their words it was like I couldn't make sense of them.   I was some how unable to process the meaning and it would just make my head hurt worse.  One time I was cooking and then Evelyn handed me a paper to read about a project she had to do and even though I read it twice I just couldn't understand what the hell it was trying to say...then just trying to read it more made me head hurt even worse, and I just had to give it to James for him to look at it.   So frustrating.  It is truly the strangest feeling.  

But I am doing much better now….I still get slight headaches here and there but nothing compared to that first week...I would say I am 95% better.  I am planning on exercising today with my neighbor, I will mostly be riding my bike which I have made into a stationary bike for the winter.  So that shouldn't be too hard on me.  I will also be heading into the library today where I volunteer and although I won’t be staying too long I think my head can handle some pricing of books in the store and re-stocking of the shelves.

There was more thing I wanted to mention in this blog before I finish up.  I think I should be done taking baths...like forever….which probably means I also shouldn't use a hot tub ever again as well.  You see usually when I take a nice hot bath (since my weight loss surgery) my body starts to feel way overheated and I get lightheaded about 10 minutes into it.  Which sucks because then I feel like I am wasting water.  Last night I took a bath and despite bringing a glass of ice cold water with me that I could drink while in the bath I STILL got that same feeling and had to get out and lay on the bed until I was cooled off.  I could tell that if I had waited any longer to get out of that bath, I would have fainted again.  So….I have decided that this is just not worth it.  I can not risk fainting while in the bath or while getting out of it so I am thinking that I will not be taking any more of them and I probably should never get in a hot tub again either just to be safe.  Obviously my body can no longer handle heat like it used to and I really can’t risk fainting just so I can relax in a bath for 30 minutes.  This is of course a bit sad….because I seriously do love taking a nice bubble bath.  lol   But oh well….I also really don’t like feeling so light headed that I might faint...the answer is clear.  

Halloween Concussion

Well….you would think that after 3 years I would know how to properly take care of myself and yet here I am still dealing with my own stupidity.  October 31st, at 7am I passed out while getting Isaiah out the door to the bus.  I was dehydrated as usual when this kind of thing happens and not only did I pass out but this time I fell forward because it happened so fast I didn’t have time to prepare my body.  I hit the ground and hit my head.  ugh.  James heard me fall and came downstairs immediately.  I woke up very disoriented as is normal, and James was taking care of me.  He said I was unconscious for about a full minute and after a while I was ok to walk and had him take me to the bathroom...where sadly….I passed out again.  At least this time he caught me.  lol   I figured I would feel better after a couple hours but I didn’t….I kept having head pains...feeling icky, and just very tired.

Finally had my parents take me to the hospital where they told me I was indeed dehydrated (duh) and that the hit to my head against the floor was a mild concussion.  I have never had one before and didn’t realize how painful and frustrating they can be.  It hurts to concentrate hard on anything...it’s like my head immediately starts hurting, and God forbid I try to do more than one thing at a time.  Driving sucks too….the motion is not fun.   And I feel even more tired than usual.  I am supposed to limit my screen time (so typing this probably isn’t good) and not doing any exercising, or other household chores that require a lot of effort.  That is fine with me!! lol  

So basically I really need to be diligent about getting my fluids in, which is something that I have told myself so many times and yet I don’t know why it is something I still struggle with occasionally. Really need to be better about it though since this whole passing out thing is getting tiresome.