Sex Talk and Other Musings

Well… it has been a long while since I wrote a blog.  Things are going quite well and I am excited that in just over 2 months I will be celebrating my 4 year surgery anniversary.  How has time flown by that fast?  Seems crazy.  As usual maintaining my goal weight (153 pounds) continues to be something I have to work hard at.  Even slipping up for a few days can make me gain weight so really it’s all about constant vigilance.  My trip to California for 3 weeks went great.  I ate right and followed closely to my calorie goals.  However my trip to Florida a couple weeks ago was not as successful since we went out to eat  A LOT!! lol  I am currently 4 pounds above my goal weight and I know I can get rid of it easy. It is just frustrating when it happens.  BUT, I am so thankful that I have my supportive husband and family by my side to help me.  

Evelyn continues to be a rock when I need her.  Asking me if I have the calories left for the food I am eating.  James as well. I would like to say Isaiah does the same thing but the fact is that he isn’t as observant of me. lol  Nonetheless I am back to watching what I am taking in and suspect I will be back at my goal weight in 3-5 days.  So that is a plus.  

On a slight negative, I am really getting anxious for February to get here so I can go find a new doc and HOPEFULLY schedule a surgery to fix my left breast.  I am sick of looking at it like this and just really want it to look like the other.  (for info on what is wrong with it you can read this blog: http://ecm1980.blogspot.com/2015/04/vegasfebruary.html)  And with the amount of money I have spent on these things I should expect them to be damn perfect!  ugh.  Anyway… it’s just annoying….it’s distracting…. especially during sexually intimate moments.  

Speaking of sex…. I don’t know if I have ever mentioned this before… and this is STRICTLY my own opinion ( I know many people think the total opposite of me and that is fine too), but skinny sex is WAY better than heavy girl sex.  Why have I never mentioned that before? Not sure.  Guess it never popped into my head while I was typing one of these, but the fact remains that I feel so much better being intimate while slender than I EVER have while heavy.  I feel confident, sexy, beautiful, desired (Not that James didn’t desire me before, he did.), flexible (Woohoo!!), and not disgusted to look/glance at myself during sex either.  Like I said, I am only speaking for me… plenty of ladies and men have zero problem with being heavier and feeling confident and sexy.  I simply didn’t.  I can’t even tell you how many times I would cry and simply be down right sad because I couldn’t stand the look of myself, let alone want James to look at me.  When I tell you that this surgery has helped me in more ways than I can count, I am telling you the 100% truth.  My whole way of life has changed.  Which is just one more reason why maintaining my weight, eating right, and staying hydrated is so important.  I will never go back to that unhealthy lifestyle again.  

So anyway…. that is where things stand right now, doing well… exercising 3 days a week still, and trying my best to overcome bad snacking habits.  Because let’s face it, snacking is what does most of us in right?  lol