Seems fitting to write a blog on this day considering the date (11.11.11). Just kinda makes it fun somehow. lol I am doing really well with my surgery recovery. I am still experiencing some pain in my bladder region which I can only assume is an inflammation due to having a catheter in me during and after surgery for so long. It certainly is not an infection since I went to the doctor and had that confirmed already. I have my two week check up on Tuesday and I am going to wait until then to bring it up. So far the pain is not near as bad as it was about a week ago, hopefully it will just go away on it’s own.
As for weight loss I have lost 12 pounds so far. It’s very exciting even though quite frankly I have not noticed it yet. I guess I am losing it from somewhere that is not as obvious. lol In my Bible study one of the things that we started talking about was fear...and I realized that one thing that I have been fearing lately is not losing weight with this surgery. I know that is a dumb thing to worry about it, after all, I have already lost 12 pounds so it would be silly to think that I won’t continue to lose weight, but still I have this irrational fear inside me that says, “What if this surgery doesn’t work? What if I only lose a little weight even though I am doing everything right?” Really I do realize that it is silly, but I can’t help it I guess...that is why they are called irrational fears after all. :)
James has been working so hard lately. Last night he didn’t get home until 1am. I’m so thankful for his job, but I feel bad for him when he has big projects like this. They just make him feel mentally worn out and tired. On the plus side he is awesome, and a trooper, he never really complains. I have been going to work quite a bit too now. 4 days this week already, and I will be doing 3 days this next week. It’s nice to get out and do something, but damn if it isn’t super cold. Standing outside watching kids at recess is an easy job, but I think my fingers were about ready to fall off today. I could barely unzip my jacket when I was ready to go home. Maybe I should start wearing two gloves on each hand. lol
Lastly, parent/teacher conferences are quickly approaching. I am not looking forward to this. I dread them every year. I always feel pressured, pressured to defend my child at the mere mention of a problem, pressured to explain a way a behavior. Worried that they will say something awful that I simply do not want to hear. Ugh....again, it’s all irrational fears and usually the meetings go just fine, but I still can’t help but feel worried nonetheless. So annoying and totally my own doing. I am a dork. But at least James will be there with me and that is always comforting, I will just let him do all the talking. lol
Anyway, that’s all for now I guess. Nite all. :)
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