The Beginning

I have a doctor appointment on September 7th to talk to my doctor about my health/weight and what I can do to start losing weight and maintaining it. I have no idea what she will say, or what she will recommend, but I have decided that whatever she suggests I am going to do...I can not keep relying on myself....I obviously need help. I have tried and tried and tried, and even when I do have success for a while I inevitably fail.

I will be honest and say that I need to lose about 90 pounds. It’s a lot, and my health is really what is important here. On my Dad’s side of the family I have aunts and uncles and cousins who already have Diabetes and I know that I have a big chance of it happening to me as well. I can’t walk up a small hill without feeling like I am going to die, my feet and legs hurt way sooner then they ever used to from walking for a long time. I have Sleep Apnea now which can (and probably is) due to being overweight. And quite frankly, I would like to be able to jump on the trampoline without being afraid of it breaking.

I don’t know what she will suggest, like I said...but I know it’s possible that she may talk to me about having surgery. I feel like I am ready for that possibility, I know that there are lots of pros and cons, but I guess at this point my health is the most important thing...so I am willing to take some risks.

I wish that I could do this on my own....well, not that I can’t, but I wish I could do it on my own AND be successful at it. I wish I could lose weight and keep it off. I wish I could have the determination, and the...well....I wish I was one of those people who could just make weight loss happen. Anyway..so that is what is happening, or at least will be happening on the 7th. Hopefully my doctor will have some good ideas about what I can do to help get my health under control, whatever those options might be.