Continued Success...and the struggles...

While we were gone on our yearly summer vacation I tried as hard as I could to continue to eat right.  I followed my diet as well as I could considering that we were out as much as were, going to the state fair and constantly going out to dinners and movies.  I think I did great.  My body must have thought so too since I lost 5 pounds while we were gone.  Considering that my weight loss is slowing down now due to the fact that I am almost at the year mark 5 pounds is really good.  It has been 9 months since my surgery as of tomorrow....I can’t believe it has gone by so fast.  Pretty soon my body will stop losing weight and will settle at whatever weight it likes....and then it will be all up to me.  I know I am up for the challenge....I can do this.  

It is getting hard though.  Now that I have lost almost 100 pounds, I have noticed that when I see something sweet that the kids are eating, or James, I hear the old voice in my head telling me that it is ok to try just a bite...just one little bite.  Yah I might get sick, but maybe I won’t.  It’s so hard!!!  I have to remind myself all the time that giving into it that one time is just the start of giving into it again and again and again...it’s like any addiction.  My addiction is food...and thank the Lord, really, that I was able to have this surgery to help me get healthy.  There was no way I could have ever done this on my own.  I am too weak, and it is only because of this surgery and God's mercy that I am accomplishing all of this.