I am feeling a bit disappointed right now with myself and my body. My breasts are just not doing as well as they should. At first glance you wouldn't notice anything wrong but then on closer inspection the issues would be quite obvious. On the left, the implant is sitting too low, and because the scar is higher than the implant now it is causing a ridge almost...so there is kind of a hump. Hard to explain. But it is noticeable and of course doesn't look right. On the right, the one that just got “fixed”, is now not fixed. The same problem is happening again. Implant coming too far to the left instead of staying centered. This of course is causing things to begin to look “off” as well.
To make it even worse I was putting something together in the kids bathroom a few days ago and it was hard to do and I was using quite a bit of muscles and straining and I could feel that my chest muscles especially were being worked. Ever since then I have been experiencing pain in my chest on the right breast. UGH!!! Why did I do that to myself??? I knew better yet did it anyway. So typical of me too.
James is of course equally annoyed as I am because this will all mean another surgery which we thought we were done with...and to top it all off we just got done paying off ALL of my surgery costs. FREEDOM...or so we thought. BOO!! James is also annoyed that it is taking so many procedures to get things right and he feels like I should try another surgeon. I don’t want to do that however because for one I trust my surgeon, two, I feel like a lot of this is my own fault because I was always lifting heavy things at work even though I shouldn’t have been...and also because he has already done all the other procedures...so he knows my body and knows what little tweaks will work with the other tweaks that have already been done.
I promised James that I will give him one more chance to “fix” me...and if that last chance doesn't do it then I will go to someone new.
So...at this point I am going to wait and see if this pain goes away in a few more days. If it does...great...then I will just try to wait to have surgery as long as I can so that way our deductible can get more and more paid off and we will have to pay less and less for any surgeries….BUT...if the pain doesn't go away in a few days then I am going to make an appointment to talk about my options, and get them to write out an estimate for me in regards to the cost so that way I can at least know what we should expect.
What a pain in the ass right? ugh…I for sure feel disheartened but I am also going to do my best to think positive as well and believe that this will all get resolved soon. Hopefully….by some miracle...the cost of the procedure will be way less than we would expect. That would be nice. P.S. In other news...it has officially been a year since my tummy tuck and breast lift/augmentation....I thought I would share some pics of how the scars are looking one year later. :)
To make it even worse I was putting something together in the kids bathroom a few days ago and it was hard to do and I was using quite a bit of muscles and straining and I could feel that my chest muscles especially were being worked. Ever since then I have been experiencing pain in my chest on the right breast. UGH!!! Why did I do that to myself??? I knew better yet did it anyway. So typical of me too.
James is of course equally annoyed as I am because this will all mean another surgery which we thought we were done with...and to top it all off we just got done paying off ALL of my surgery costs. FREEDOM...or so we thought. BOO!! James is also annoyed that it is taking so many procedures to get things right and he feels like I should try another surgeon. I don’t want to do that however because for one I trust my surgeon, two, I feel like a lot of this is my own fault because I was always lifting heavy things at work even though I shouldn’t have been...and also because he has already done all the other procedures...so he knows my body and knows what little tweaks will work with the other tweaks that have already been done.
I promised James that I will give him one more chance to “fix” me...and if that last chance doesn't do it then I will go to someone new.
So...at this point I am going to wait and see if this pain goes away in a few more days. If it does...great...then I will just try to wait to have surgery as long as I can so that way our deductible can get more and more paid off and we will have to pay less and less for any surgeries….BUT...if the pain doesn't go away in a few days then I am going to make an appointment to talk about my options, and get them to write out an estimate for me in regards to the cost so that way I can at least know what we should expect.
What a pain in the ass right? ugh…I for sure feel disheartened but I am also going to do my best to think positive as well and believe that this will all get resolved soon. Hopefully….by some miracle...the cost of the procedure will be way less than we would expect. That would be nice. P.S. In other news...it has officially been a year since my tummy tuck and breast lift/augmentation....I thought I would share some pics of how the scars are looking one year later. :)
Picture on Left: Tummy scar and new belly button
Picture on Right: Hip/Side scar
ALL healing up very well.
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