Tracking

Its been awhile since I last wrote and I thought I should update you all.  In five more days it will have been three months since I had my tummy tucks and breast lift/implants.  I'm still healing up well.  Quite well.  My incisions still look great.  I have not noticed much of a change in them recently but I also dont expect there to be.  I know it will take quite some time before significant change happens in how they look.   It could be a whole year!  I almost have full strength back.  I still can't lift heavy items when they are low to the ground and I have noticed that when I try to use my muscles more than usual... like really use my strength.... its odd....I know I should be able to but its like my muscles don't exist.  I try to pull windows down and I can't make my arms do it.  Its odd.  They are getting better the more my breasts heal up...so I know its just about waiting for more time to go by.  I'm just anxious I guess.

Especially since I head back to the gym on June 1st.   I know I won't be able to run... probably not jog either...and I don't know how much I can work on my stomach...but I'm going to try and just start off small and easy...not push it of course.   I just really want to stay fit.  I really want to keep this body looking as good as Dr. Dinick made it look.  I'm determined to not gain this weight back.  Which is probably why when ever I weigh myself I am always very aware of what the scale says.

For instance,  I have not been journalling my food in take for a very long time because I felt confident that I just knew what I was taking in really well.  But the scale says I weigh 146 pounds right now instead of the 143 pounds I was at about 3 weeks ago.  I can only assume that is because I'm eating more fat than I should be.   I know three pounds isn't alot....but you have to put yourself in my shoes I guess and really understand how scary the idea of going back to where I was is to me.   I'm sure I'm just being paranoid.... but even so I would rather just start tracking my food again and make sure I'm not eating more fats than I need to be.

So I did.   I have my app back on my phone again and I'm tracking everything.   Did really good today too.  If I do this for awhile and stay at the same weight than that's fine.... at least then I will know it is what I'm supposed to weigh... and I can accept that just fine.  

Anyway....nothing else going on...I will update though after my next appointment.  I should have some news at that point about my right breast and if we will be adjusting my scar on that one in an attempt too slightly move my nipple to face more forward.