New Scale

I went without owning a scale for about 3 months.  Pretty good really when you consider that I had been weighing myself every day for years now, sometimes twice a day.  But it was getting unhealthy to be weighing myself that often and I had finally decided it was best to get rid of it and force myself to have a withdrawal of sorts. It felt good.  Good to be focusing on just being being happy with how I looked and not worrying that I weigh a bit more than I would like. 

But everything comes to an end, and at some point you have to get a scale so you can keep track of your health.  I went on Amazon and found one that had great reviews and purchased it. Getting ready to do an official weigh in had me nervous, but I step on it ready for the worst. I was glad to see that although I hadn't lost any weight, I hadn't gained any either.  I was still holding steady at 171 pounds. Not what I want, but it's also fine. I keep on trying to remind myself that I look good, and feel good, and there isn't any reason  to be upset.  Of course that is difficult when you want to see the same low number you once did before, and look the same as you did with that low number, but life isn't easy, you gotta work hard, and I know I haven't been working as hard at losing it as I could be. This blog is full of me telling you guys how I am back on the exercise wagon and doing well, I am gonna lose that 15 pounds! lol  But then I don't, and fall back off.  I do well enough to maintain this weight, but man it's tough to lose the extra.

I guess in the end I am in a sense back to where I was when I was fat, mentally speaking at least.  I can continue to be this weight, and be content, or I can work harder and lose that weight. It's all a choice. Right now I am making some better choices, exercising a bit more, and I started drinking some Slim Fast shakes (not to supplement meals, but because they have 20 grams of protein and 1 gram of sugar. I am not eating my protein bars any more, since I basically got addicted to them, so these drinks will help me keep my protein up. And they taste ok, so it could be worse. lol

Right now I am sticking to only weighing myself once a week, Sunday morning.  I think that is a good day. It's hard to not step on it and take a peek... but I am managing. This weight loss journey never ends. Weight loss surgery isn't a magic pill, it can't fix your mental problems with eating, but it is a great tool that helps you lose weight quick and live a healthier life.  Still the second best decision I ever made (1st being marrying my husband) and I don't regret it at all. I look good, I feel good, and most importantly, I have made a healthier life for myself.