Almost Time!!

I now weigh 150 pounds!  Crazy isn’t it?  I really never dreamed that this could be happening to me.  My surgery is coming up in less than a month and I am so anxious to get this loose skin off of me.  I want to have nice breasts again that actually look right and be able to have my pants fit like they should without this skin getting in the way.  It will be so worth all the pain I am going to be in.  And I know I will be in some major pain.  

I am loving working at Kroger still.  That job is seriously great for my ego.  I am always getting compliments on how young I look or that I can’t possibly be 32 years old.  It is great and I love it, but I can tell that if I am not careful it would be easy to let it go to my head.  I am trying to keep myself in check, I need to stay humble and grounded, and let God have his way with me, instead of me getting in the way of myself.  Does that make sense?  It did in my head. lol

2 Months @Kroger

I have been working at Kroger doing the 8pm to 2am shift for about 2 months now.  I really like it a lot and the people I work with are pretty awesome too.  I think the best part is all the people of the neighborhood that I get to meet and talk to.  The strangest part for me though is getting attention from men while there.  I am so used to being the big girl, and to only getting sexual attention from my husband that when other men do it I am quite thrown and don’t know how to react or what to do really.

I have had one man tell me that I am, and I quote, “Hot as hell!”, and another want to call me.  I have had one co-worker kind of get a little creepy on me and I had to set him straight and I have had one guy seem to go out of his way to hang around and talk to me.  It is all very odd and made me realize more and more how badly I needed to get my ring re-sized.  I have not been able to wear it for almost 2 years.  First because my finger was too fat for it, and then because my finger was too small.  lol  

I have now lost 120 pounds, and I think that my fingers are pretty well settled with their new ring sizes, so I took them in to get taken care of.  I had four different rings all together and so I took those in and they are all finished and beautiful now!  I am so happy I get to wear them again.  It feels great to look like a married woman once more.  Hard to believe that I now wear a size 6 on my ring finger!!  I can’t remember what size I was before ( I should have found out while at the jewelers) but I know it went down at least 2 sizes.  

Time sure is ticking by though my surgery will be coming up before I know it.  Only 38 more days and then I will be in the worse pain I can imagine, but all for a very good reason.  I can’t wait for the finished product.  A year from now I will look and feel so different...I can’t wait.  :)

Surgery Fast Approaching

Talked to my surgeon's office today and asked a few questions.  Found out that James will need to be home to take care of my for at least one week, and then for about 3 more weeks after that he will need to do all the vacuuming, grocery shopping, and laundry.  Basically, anything that requires me lifting more than 10 pounds since I will not be able to lift more than that for 12 weeks.  I should be able to go back to work after 4 weeks and will just have to maintain that same weight restriction while I am there too.  They said that shouldn’t be a problem though which makes me really happy.  

I have an appointment on February 2nd with my surgeon and at that visit he will be showing me the implants and we will discuss what they will look like and how they will sit and feel.  I will ask all my questions too of course.  I am so excited to get this all done!  I wish that I could do it right now in some ways.  I feel slightly nervous about all the pain that I know I will be in but really that doesn’t compare with how excited I am to see the finished product when I am all healed up.

I will be paying for my surgery before I have it at this appointment as well.  I also have to pay for the two garments I will be wearing for who the hell knows how long.  One will be for my breasts and the other for my stomach.  I have a feeling that my stomach will be the thing that is the most painful.  Being sliced open from one end to the other in one direction, and then the same thing in the other, is going to be nothing short of agonizing.  But like I said, I will just focus on the final product.  That is what will get me through.  

I have one other last appointment before the big surgery day on February 21st, and that is my Pre-Admission Testing appt on February 6th.  That will be a 3-hour ordeal where they do a ton of stuff to me so they can be sure that I am medically fit to have surgery and survive it.  I expect no issues with that test and in fact I am sure I will pass it with flying colors.  This month cannot go by fast enough in my mind.  I am very anxious....in a good way!